My name is S.J. Santiago and I am a writer, an artist, a musician and so much more…
I decided to write this over because after looking at the original post I decided that no one really wants to know that much; even I got bored reading it again lol So this is the shorter version yet I think it says a lot more about who I am…
I, like many people in my age group, have been through a lot, seen a lot and done a lot so I will save you the details and if we ever meet in person we can swap stories, of which there are many.
It is hard to summarize yourself in a short and concise post…how do you explain your inner workings and souls desires in a way that really gives someone who doesn’t know you a real idea of who you are?
What I want to do here is give you a little insight as to how I am wired… we are all of course wired to a different tune and some of us only play 1 type of music but others, like myself, play every kind… if you do not understand what I am saying after you read through I hope it will become clear.
My mind: I try not to speak unless I have something good to say…I had a life changing adventure in my mid twenties and became a different person because of it. I was humbled in a huge way and it made me realize that my life was great and I am one of the most fortunate and lucky people I know and there is nothing I should have to complain about, so I stopped. I decided to try and only speak positive, happy words to show my gratitude for life. People often wonder why I am so quiet, I do a lot of listening not because I have nothing good to say but because I try to make my words count, I want to speak with purpose so I think about things a lot before I speak them. I have my off days believe me…those are my hormonal days…the days when I fly off the handle and let it all out lol but not in a omg she is at it again way, I try to at least make it amusing because the last thing anyone wants to hear is someone bitch about something as mundane as the weather or traffic.
I am always trying to expand my mind by learning something new.I am always reading both fiction and non fiction books besides the assigned reading for school and I am also always trying to learn how to “do” something new. I taught myself to play the guitar last year, bought a kayak and learned how to do that. This year I bought a paddle board and will take it out and learn how to do that and am going to buy a Cello and tackle that…I am always looking for new things to learn and do because life is so very short and I want to experience as much of it as possible!
My heart: is huge. I have SO much love to give. I am passionate about everything that I do. I want to share this love and passion with everyone. I want to help anyone in any way I can and I want to give my love to those that will have it…my loyalty and support in friendships, my hugs and love in family, to passersby in a smile and someday to my life partner intimately.
My soul: Has many cracks but continues to shine. I feel like my soul/spirit is my hope and as long as I keep my hope alive my soul will shine. What do I hope for? I do not only hope for myself, I have hope for things for my friends and family and co workers and random strangers… I am always thinking about the people in my life and wishing them well, even if they do not know it.
There is only one hope that I have for myself because there is only one thing I can hope for that I cannot make happen, there is only one thing I cannot work towards and attain because of my efforts. I can get anything else in life I want through working for it but Love is something that only comes to those when it is meant to be. My only hope is that I get to spend the second half of my life with someone who will love me as much as I love them and that I find them soon because I am truly ready to love again and to share all of myself and my life with the right person, for the rest of my time here on earth.
My desires: To meet people who have something to say! To share time with people who have lived life and want to share their stories. To live my life to the fullest, making as many memories as possible, so I too have stories to tell. I desire getting lost in long conversations and warm embraces and passionate kisses with someone who desires and loves me as much as I desire & love them. I want to go on adventures and enjoy every minute that we have on the too short weekends…I want to watch sunsets & sunrises, cloud watching and star gazing…I desire to live my life everyday smiling at least once, sharing a smile with someone and going to bed happy because I got to live another day.
My joys: I find joy in creating! Writing, painting, playing my guitar & crafting! It is a huge source of joy for me to indulge in one of my hobbies. I find joy in a warm day in winter, the first buds of spring and the first fallen leaf in Autumn. I find joy in getting a random text message from anyone just to say hi and that they are thinking of me. I find joy in a sky full of clouds and a sunset full of wondrous beauty. I find joy in seeing couples walking hand in hand and the laughter of a child. I find joy in putting my kayak on the water and just enjoying the beauty of life around me. I find joy in people that never give up, people who follow their dreams to the finish line and live the life that makes them happy. I find joy in strangers who always have something nice to say or a smile to share…I find joy in so much of everyday life and it gives me joy to try and share any little part of it that I can.
I work hard for the life I have and I find joy in knowing that anything I want in life can be mine if I want it enough to work for it.I find joy in knowing that everything happens for a reason and in that joy I find hope that everything will always turn out for the best. I find joy every day that I open my eyes and know I am here to do it all over again because I am grateful for this gift called life regardless of what happens.
My ambitions: To give back to my community and help others in any way that I can. I feel very fortunate in life and have so many people that have come along throughout my life and helped in many different ways on many different levels and I want to be that person for someone else so it makes sense to follow my dreams and finish school so I can be that person as a Nurse. I am in school starting this Autumn to works towards that goal and it is my number one priority, I am aiming for that finish line!
My Dreams: I don’t just wish for what I want, I work hard for it and make my own dreams come true.
This is me.